I'm Tired of Fighting
My hands are up. I don't know what to do. So Lord do what You will.
I'm pretty good at playing like my life is happy. And for the most part I guess it is. Not much to complain about. A wonderful family, a house, a God who loves me unconditionally. So why then do I get so sad and depressed? Feeling like I'm just barely getting by? Well that's how I've been feeling lately. Without revealing too much I feel like I'm at an impasse and don't know what to do about my situation. I feel like I'm loosing my faith or that I could be if I don't get everything right. So I've been looking at my surroundings, trying... no, more like fighting to fix it all and make it right. But it won't get fixed by fighting. No, I should have known better. So my hands are up Lord. Now when things look hopeless I look to You, where I should have looked in the first place. And if things are going to get fixed, and I desperately want it fixed, I'm going to have to pray about it. Give me ears to hear Your voice.
I'm pretty good at playing like my life is happy. And for the most part I guess it is. Not much to complain about. A wonderful family, a house, a God who loves me unconditionally. So why then do I get so sad and depressed? Feeling like I'm just barely getting by? Well that's how I've been feeling lately. Without revealing too much I feel like I'm at an impasse and don't know what to do about my situation. I feel like I'm loosing my faith or that I could be if I don't get everything right. So I've been looking at my surroundings, trying... no, more like fighting to fix it all and make it right. But it won't get fixed by fighting. No, I should have known better. So my hands are up Lord. Now when things look hopeless I look to You, where I should have looked in the first place. And if things are going to get fixed, and I desperately want it fixed, I'm going to have to pray about it. Give me ears to hear Your voice.
